It's a girl! 10 pounds 7 oz. Oh my...

So, Lex...

Our little Sumo wrestler!  You came into this world the size of a 3 month old!  Because you were 3 weeks early your lungs were not quite developed, so they squeezed you into an incubator until your breathing stabilized.   Your chubby body filled the entire space, you were the perfect Christmas gift, all wrapped up in a clear box! 

Luckily, we were able to take you home Christmas Eve and celebrate the GIFT of your life.

Thank you God for the gift of Alexi and for the gift of your son, Jesus!  Both of these babies have brought me closer to you and for that, I am forever grateful!

So, Lex....remember me? I'm your mom...

December 22, your 17th birthday Alexi Christine!  Sometimes the anticipation of an event like your birthday, or holiday is much worse then the actual day.  Who would think that after 16 years of you being gone, the name Alexi on my lips still creates a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes?  Does the process of grieving ever end?  I think from today on I will think of grief as a gift.  A gift that brings me closer to Heaven, God and your beautiful spirit!    Your big sister, Ana captures what I feel in my heart everytime I think of you.  I close my eyes and imagine being so close that I could smell you and touch you and I wonder what would it be like to be with my Lex on your 17th birthday...